'Jackass' star Bam Margera pens heartbreaking letter from rehab to his fans
Twenty years ago, he was flying high with a starring role on Jackass. But nowadays, things are a lot tougher for Bam Margera, with the former reality TV star checking into rehab for the third time last week.
A week after starting treatment again, the American professional stunt performer took to social media to share an emotional letter written from the centre.
In the moving handwritten note, he told fans he was finally done "wasting his time" with alcohol and that the party was "over". In addition, he put his behaviour down to the death of his friend Jackass co-star Ryan Dunn who tragically died in a car crash in 2011, stating he had spent enough time mourning the loss.
"Dear C*cksuckers, I have spent enough time grieving over Ryan Dunn through alcohol," Margera wrote. "I'm 39 years old, the party is over. I don't plan on drinking anymore. I have wasted too much time at the bar and all my friends who needed decades of help are now sober. [sic]"
He continued: "I would like to join the sober parade. I hear the stories of other rehab patients telling me about there [sic] weeks or months of horrible detox. Well, guess how many days of detox I had? ZERO!"
"I am sick of people always thinking I'm drunk, crazy or f*cked up. So if you plan on calling me to tell me that, you can go f*ck yourself instead. I'm not going to suck anyone's d*ck to stay on [skateboard company] Element and or prove that I am sober. I am sober. So keep printing BAM [skateboard] decks or don't. Plant a tree or go bite the big one, every day is Earth day! [sic]"
The 39-year-old, who also appeared on MTV's Viva La Bam, last spent time in rehab in January 2018, after being arrested for DUI.
Sentenced to three years probation in this incident, the pro skateboarder was then sober for eight months before coming off the rails again after being robbed at gunpoint in Colombia.
Another letter he posted to social media made it clear that he wanted to get back on the straight and narrow, not only for himself, but for his family.
In 2013, Margera married Nicole Boyd in Reykjavík, Iceland and the pair announced the birth of their first child, Phoenix in December 2017.
In his second note on Instagram, the filmmaker admitted he didn't "do well" being separated from his family.
"To whom it may concern, 1. I don't do well with not being allowed to Facetime my wife and kid 2. I don't do well with not being able to answer important calls with important people, [sic]" he wrote.
The letter continued: "3. I don't do well with not being able to go with everyone else to an outside AA meeting. 4. I don't do well with not being allowed to use the gym. I don't understand why I can't go on the Interweb like everyone else. 6. My eyes hurt from reading, my wrist hurts from writing, 'cause there is nothing else to do. [sic]"
Get well soon, Bam - we're all behind you.