Adult film star August Ames' brother speaks out over the reason for her death
It was reported yesterday that August Ames, the adult film star, had passed away at the age 23. Toxicology reports were conducted and no official cause of death has been found yet, but many believed she may have ended her own life.
This news came shortly after Ames received widespread backlash online for her comments about working with gay performers in the industry. "Whichever (lady) performer is replacing me tomorrow," she wrote online, "you’re shooting with a guy who has shot gay porn, just to let cha know." She then added "BS is all I can say Do agents really not care about who they’re representing? I do homework for my body".
This sparked a debate on Twitter, with some coming to her defence, claiming that gay performers are not subject to the same level of tests that straight performers do. In response to this, many pointed out that if you are taking part in a straight production then you have to follow the same protocol regardless of what you had worked on in the past.
Ames later said she had nothing to apologise for, and that it comes down to her own health and wellbeing, writing "I CHOOSE who I have inside my body. No hate". Her final tweet, which was issued the same day as her death, simply read: "fuck y'all".
In light of this tragedy, and those in her friendship circle who have spoken out Ames' struggles with depression, her brother has now spoken out. James Grabowski posted a tribute to her on his private Facebook page, which was then shared across the internet. Wishing to make an official statement in light of this, he opened up to The Sun Online:
"I want my sister's death to be recognised as a serious issue - bullying is not OK. It cost me my baby sister's life."
"I will do what I can to be a voice for Mercedes [August's real name] but right now my family and I need to be left alone to grieve - we have lost a loved one."
"I didn't want people switching my words around - it was supposed to be a private post. I just need to be alone and have some time to deal with this."
In addition to James' words, there have also been revelations about Ames' past, including her struggles with drug addiction and a traumatic childhood. She opened up about her past on the podcast Holly Randall Unfiltered, on which she featured in September.
"I have an awful relationship with my dad. I tried to forget about it and talk to him about how I was feeling about my childhood and everything, because there was a lot of sexual molestation — not from my father but from his [redacted] — so I had to suffer from being molested by my [redacted]. When I finally told my dad, he didn't believe me."
"The issue was never resolved. All my life I grew up a liar by my dad and his side of the family."
"Some days I'll be fine, and if I'm not doing anything I'll get these awful flashbacks of my childhood and I get very depressed and I can't get out of bed and cancel my scenes for like a week or two".
She then spoke about how she deals with these issues, including attempts to get into therapy, a practice she isn't a fan of. On top of this, despite enjoying her career she still found her profession an obstacle in social situations.
“It was just awful. It’s still recent where I have to keep myself occupied or else I start thinking about all that s**t and then I fall into a depression. I try to do therapy. I hate that word. I hate therapy.”
“I would get in contact with some people and then I would feel badly because they’d be like ‘What’s your profession and I’d be like ‘Oh, I’m in the adult industry’ and then I’d feel like they’re like ‘Oh, that’s the whole reason that you are the way you are’ and then I’d get turned off"
The Canada-born actress passed away in California on Tuesday. Many of her fellow adult actors and others who work in the industry came out to pay their respects to her following her death. Her husband, adult film director Kevin Moore, asked for privacy in the wake of her death, stating: "she was the kindest person I ever knew and she meant the world to me".