Chrissy Teigen has revealed she's "100 days sober" on Tuesday, October 26, during her first television interview since she was accused of cyberbullying over the summer.
The model landed herself in hot water earlier this year when she was accused by multiple celebrities of bullying, which provoked intense backlash against her on social media.
She was forced to issue an apology for her past behavior after model Courtney Stodden, who uses they/them pronouns, described cruel tweets and direct messages they received from Teigen when they were still a teenager in a May story published by The Daily Beast.
Watch Chrissy Teigen open up about the cyberbullying allegations for the first time:
Appearing on The Today Show, Teigen told co-host, Hoda Kotb, that she has since taken a step back to "grow and learn" from the experience.
"I look at my kids and what I want their values to be and how I want them to treat people, and to see that in myself that I wasn't doing that was, I think, the hardest part for me," she said.
Being on the internet at the time, she said, "didn't feel like anybody was going to read" her messages, she explained. "I didn't really think about the impact and the person on the other side."
The model said she has since reached out to the people whom she hurt in the past, adding it was a "big moment" for her.
"There's this whole cliche, 'I'm glad it happened,' but truly it made me a stronger person, a better person," she said. "I'm actually 100 days sober today. I feel very clear-headed."
"I feel like I've done the work and I just hope these people can forgive and be able to welcome the fact that hopefully they've seen me be better," she added.
Later in the show, Teigen revealed that she had not gone more than a day or two without alcohol since she started drinking in her early 20s.
"I've been struggling with it honestly, for the past couple of years when I knew it was kind of an issue," she said.
"Just even like doing interviews and things like I would think I needed a glass of wine, and then it just started to get embarrassing like at award shows and things and everyone memes it and thinks it's funny and cute that you fell asleep or something."
She found that the way she was acting in public to be "embarrassing" when she drank, especially around husband John Legend. "I just was like, I can't be the messy one," she told Hoda and Jenna.
"This is embarrassing, and I don't want to be waking up in the morning and being like, 'Oh, what did I say?' Like that's so embarrassing and then it was just not worth it."
The cookbook author then apologized again in June after facing another backlash for her resurfaced tweets that targeted Stodden and others, writing there was "no excuse" for her behavior and saying she was "a troll, full stop."
She went on: "I think you learn so much in the moments where you do lose so much, you lose it all, your world is kind of turned upside down.
"For me, it was a big moment of, 'Wow, I need to find out how I can be better, how I can grow from this, learn from this.' There's that old cliché like I'm glad it happened, but truly it made me a stronger person, a better person."