Christine Tran Ferguson, the influencer behind the handle @tourdelust, has recently revealed that her one-year-old son has tragically passed away.
Taking to Instagram, the 37-year-old penned a lengthy but emotional tribute to her son after she opened up about his death.
"You’re 15 months today my little angel," she wrote. "Mama and dada love you so much, you brought us so much joy, and made our family complete. I have never known how much love and happiness I could have until you came into our life."
She continued: "You are the smartest & happiest little boy I’ve ever known. You were going to do amazing things and change the world I just know it. I miss your little laughs, the way you stick out your tongue when you giggled, the way you picked up your food with your tiny chubby fingers, your little dance moves, how you clapped your hands, your little feet kicking a ball, the way you grab the hockey or golf sticks for dada, you just always knew how to make everyone smile."
The star then went on to state how this news has left her heartbroken.
"My heart is utterly broken and shattered into a million pieces," she continued in the caption. "I will never understand why, nothing makes sense, I’m still in shock, I just want to wake up from this unimaginable nightmare and have you back in my arms.
"Why is this happening to us, why Asher?? You did not deserve any of this. Losing you is the hardest experience mommy and daddy has ever had to endure. Everyday has been torture without you, this pain is unbearable. I still feel like you’re going to reappear but our home is so quiet and empty without you. Part of me has died with you. I’m so heartbroken, with no idea how to live a life without you," she said.
The mom-of-one then went on to reacall her favorite things about the little boy including his "big smile", his "babbles" and his "chubby little feet."
"I just want you back so badly, but you’re never coming home and it’s killing me," Tran Ferguson continued. "We feel so lost without you and miss you so damn much. I prayed for the miracle, for YOU to be the miracle, for you to come back to us. My heart aches for you every second. You will never be forgotten. We will take you everywhere we go. We love you so much my sweet boy, I pray I get to see you soon."
Thanking fans and friends for reaching out, Tran Ferguson asked that she and her husband have "privacy during this difficult time as we’re still in shock and still have no answers to this unbearable nightmare."
Earlier this month, the influencer urged fans for prayers in a separate post after revealing that her son was in the ICU.
"Please God, give us a miracle and save my sweet Asher," she wrote at the time. "We need you, we miss your laugh, your smile, we need you here with mama & dada. Please help us pray for our precious Asher who is fighting for his life in the ICU."
While Tran Ferguson didn't go on to reveal any further details about what may have caused little Asher's death, an older post stated that he had a traumatic birth due to the umbilical cord being wrapped around his neck.
"The doctor told us he had the cord around his neck so when the contractions happened it would tighten around his neck which led to his heart rate dropping," she explained in an Instagram post. "I’m just so glad our amazing doctors delivered him safely. It was awhile before I got to finally hold him once I was in the recovery room. I couldn’t believe it, he’s FINALLY HERE in my arms! I feel so blessed and lucky to be your mother and understand what everyone has told me. There is no love like this."
Our thoughts and prayers are with the family during this difficult period.
