Amber Heard has admitted she did "horrible regrettable things" in her relationship with Johnny Depp - but has maintained that she "always told the truth".
The Aquaman star reflected on her tumultuous time with Depp in her first sit-down interview since their explosive defamation trial against one another last month.
In a conversation with NBC News' Savannah Guthrie, Heard gave even further insight into her relationship with the Pirates of the Caribbean actor.
While Heard has shared written statements on social media, this is the first time she has spoken about the court case in person since the jury announced that they had sided against her, and awarded her ex-husband over $10 million in damages.
"I did do and say horrible, regrettable things throughout my relationship. I behaved in horrible, almost unrecognizable to myself ways. So much regret," she told Guthrie in part one of the NBC special.
She went on to claim that she had been honest about the uglier side of the relationship, saying: "I have freely, openly and voluntarily talked about what I did. I talked about the horrible language, I talked about being pushed to the extent where I didn't even know the difference between right and wrong."
"I will always continue to feel like I was a part of this, like I was the other half of this relationship - because I was. And it was ugly and could be very beautiful," she continued, adding: "It was very, very toxic. We were awful to each other. I made a lot of mistakes, a lot of mistakes. I have always told the truth."
At one point, Guthrie recalled Depp saying that he was never physically abusive to Heard, and asked the actress if this was a lie, to which Heard responded: "Yes it is."
The 36-year-old went on to address claims that both she and Depp were violent in their relationship, claiming she only ever acted reactively. "I never had to instigate it. I responded to it. When you are living in violence it becomes normal. As I testified to, you have to adapt," she said.
Part two of the NBC interview is scheduled to air on Wednesday (June 15) on the network's Today show. The full-length interview will be released two days later on Friday (June 17) on Dateline NBC.