Meghan Trainor has revealed she was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) after the "traumatic" birth of her son.
As reported by People, the 'Made You Look' singer, 29, sought help from mental health specialists after experiencing persistent flashbacks of her in the hospital as her then newborn son Riley - who struggled with his breathing - was rushed to the neonatal intensive care unit (NICU).
She shared the diagnosis in her upcoming book; titled Dear Future Mama: A TMI Guide to Pregnancy, Birth, and Motherhood from Your Bestie. The book, which is slated for release on April 25, sees Trainor go into detail about her experience having her first child.
Riley, who Trainor shares with her husband Daryl Sabara, was born via cesarean section in 2021.
She had to undergo a scheduled C-section to deliver Riley as he was in the breech position, which means he was lying feet or buttocks first in the womb.
"After a few minutes I realized that I hadn't heard [Riley] cry," Trainor wrote in her book. "I saw Daryl's face change as he looked over to where our baby was being worked on by the doctors."
"Daryl's face was panicked, but as freaked out as I felt inside, the drugs I'd been given for the surgery wouldn't let me panic," she wrote, adding that the doctor advised Sabara to go with Riley to the NICU while Trainor remained on the surgical table. "Good thing I was drugged, or I'd have jumped up with a gaping hole in my belly and run right after them."
"I was alone, without Daryl or Riley, and I wasn't sure if my baby could even breathe," she wrote. "Would he be okay? Would Daryl be okay, up there on his own with this crisis? The drugs and the stress made it seem like everything was happening in slow motion."
Trainor recalled how the doctor tried his best to inject some levity into the harrowing ordeal by making some jokes - however, she said she "couldn't laugh."
"I tried to get myself to take a nap to make the time pass faster," she said, "but I knew where I was and the reality I was facing, and it was too scary to fall asleep."
Luckily, Trainor was able to FaceTime Sabara and Riley in the NICU when she was taken to the recovery room. She added: "I cried when I saw all the tubes and cords connected to him. He felt so far away. But I was also distracted by his beauty and by the fact that he was a real person out in the world. I couldn't wait to hold him, rock him, nurse him, kiss him."
