Selena Gomez has tragically recounted the moment when she contemplated taking her own life.
The chart-topping singer made the revelation in her latest interview with Rolling Stone, ahead of the release of her upcoming documentary on Apple TV+.
As the magazine's December cover star, Gomez opened up in a raw and vulnerable discussion about her struggles with bipolar disorder, cruel tabloid gossip, and her battle with lupus.
While the former Disney star admits she never attempted to end her life, she would often contemplate the idea, telling the magazine: "I thought the world would be better if I wasn't there."
The 30-year-old Texan also described how her mental health began severely declining in her early 20s, resulting in visits to four different treatment centers, stating: "I think when I started hitting my early twenties is when it started to get really dark, when I started to feel like I was not in control of what I was feeling, whether that was really great or really bad."
Gomez then spoke about the reality of both her manic and depressive bipolar episodes, adding that she was once convinced she had to buy everyone she knew a car. Soon after, however, a low would hit.
"It would start with depression, then it would go into isolation. Then it just was me not being able to move from my bed. I didn't want anyone to talk to me. My friends would bring me food because they love me, but none of us knew what it was," she said. "Sometimes it was weeks I'd be in bed, to where even walking downstairs would get me out of breath."
After leaving the treatment facility, Gomez got in touch with a psychiatrist who helped find the right medications for her situation. However, she also spoke about the struggles she faced while detoxing from the medication she was on - which she said also involved having to "learn how to remember certain words".
Explaining the subject of her upcoming Apple TV+ documentary, Gomez revealed that it was "a deeper documentary here about a young woman struggling to incorporate her diagnosis - she was fresh out of the mental facility - and trying to reconcile the fact that she's still a patient, she's still in the earliest stages of her recovery, but she desperately wants to use her platform for good and to talk about it."
"There's some tension there because obviously she's trying to be an example for others, but she's still not on the other side of it, so to speak," the 'Good For You singer' added.
If you or someone you know is in crisis, please reach out for help and contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-8255, text HOME to 741741, or visit SpeakingOfSuicide.com/resources.