A woman who jumped to her death in New York City had written a heartbreaking suicide note on Instagram, which appeared on the app a day after her suicide.
Twenty-four-year-old Yocheved Gourarie of Brooklyn revealed to her loved ones in the tragic post: "If you’re reading this, I’m gone".
The note was scheduled to run one day after she jumped off the Vessel in Hudson Yards, a popular tourist attraction in New York.
Gourarie had been known to share her mental health struggles - which included anorexia and depression - with her social media followers.
"I hope you can find some comfort in knowing I am no longer in pain," Gourarie wrote.
On Tuesday (December 22), the Crown Heights resident took the subway into Manhattan and bought a ticket to the Vessel, per The New York Post.
Gourarie had also come with "information making it easy to ascertain who to contact," according to The Post.
She had gone up to the highest level of the building, climbed onto the railing, and leaped off it, police say.
Following a 911 call, EMS pronounced Gourarie dead at the scene.
Gourarie wrote in her posthumous digital suicide note:
"This is pretty surreal, isn’t it? One might say uncomfortable. Jarring. Just close the app now if you want. I guess if you don’t know by now you should probably sit down.
"If you’re reading this, I’m gone. Either that or somehow incapacitated in the hospital so I can’t delete this scheduled post. I really hope I’m not though.
"I don’t care to go into the reasons why I’m gone, but there are certainly more than thirteen. I scheduled a note to send to my parents posthumously; if they choose to share or publish it you may be privy to more insight.
"I will leave that choice up to them. Even just publishing this may pain them. I don’t want to do that, I just want to leave my last mark on this world.
"All of you have made my life so much more full, brighter, and happier than it would have been without you. Your support, your encouragement, your hugs, your invitations, your smiles, your texts, your tagging me in memes you think I’d find funny.
"None of you could have done anything - or done more - to prevent this from happening. You all did your absolute best and for that I am eternally grateful. I hope you can find some comfort in knowing I am no longer in pain. I love you."
Gourarie often documented her struggles with her eating disorder and her depression on Instagram.
"Depression has been coursing through my veins [ever] since I could remember," she wrote in a post from May 2019.
In the same post, Gourarie said: "Unlike my experience with anorexia, I have not pursued recovery from depression until very recently."
In August 2019, she wrote, "I often give off the impression that I am recovered and am offering advice from a place of complete healing.
"I’m not. Anorexia continues to plague me, though its grip is far looser than it used to be and I have much more insight into my disordered thought patterns and actions."
Gourarie continued: "I am also blessed with an incredible support system of friends and family, something that many others with eating disorders aren’t fortunate to have."
"Since the age of 12, I have struggled with anorexia nervosa and have been fighting for recovery since committing to treatment at 17 – something I was only able to do because of all the love and support surrounding me."
A week before her death, she posted a clip of herself singing 'Moon River' as her father, Avremi played the electric piano.
On Friday, Gourarie's father shared a heartbreaking post of his own, explaining that his daughter had spent a little over two months at Center For Change, a "wonderful residential facility in Utah for women struggling with ED."
He continued: "In her short time there she made some good friends and connections. I am humbled by all the messages I’ve received from these special ladies, precious souls.
"We are only finding out now how she gave of herself to others and how many lives she touched. I guess I should feel blessed that we given 24 short years to have and to hold her."
.jpg_D0PQYG?tr=h-184)
