In her newly released memoir, Virginia Roberts Giuffre, one of Jeffrey Epstein’s most well-known accusers, shared the disturbing word that the late financier made her say during sex.
Co-written with journalist Amy Wallace, Nobody’s Girl: A Memoir of Surviving Abuse and Fighting for Justice was published on October 21, just months after Giuffre’s death by suicide in April at age 41. The book marks the first time Giuffre has told her full story in her own words, following years of interviews, lawsuits, and public scrutiny.
A complete account of life inside Epstein’s world
In the memoir, Giuffre describes being trafficked by Epstein to powerful men (including billionaires, politicians, and Britain’s former Prince, Andrew Mountbatten-Windsor) and subjected to what she calls years of manipulation and psychological control.
Reflecting on how she rationalized the abuse, Giuffre writes, as quoted by CBS News: “I needed him not to be a selfish, cruel pedophile. So, I told myself he wasn’t one.”
While many survivors have come forward, Giuffre’s account stands out for her claim that Epstein “loaned” her to his wealthy friends, an allegation she fought to expose for nearly two decades.
Giuffre passed away in April. Credit: Instagram/Virginia Giuffre.
From Mar-a-Lago to Epstein’s inner circle
Giuffre recounts that her connection to Epstein began in 2000, just weeks before her 17th birthday. At the time, she worked at the spa inside Donald Trump’s Mar-a-Lago resort in Palm Beach, Florida. There, she met Ghislaine Maxwell, who recruited her under the guise of providing massages for Epstein.
What began as massage work quickly escalated into coerced sexual encounters, she says. Giuffre describes being drawn into Epstein’s orbit of luxury and control, traveling between his homes in New York, New Mexico, and the U.S. Virgin Islands, and being introduced to high-profile figures along the way.
“I quickly learned not to keep him waiting”
One episode early in her time with Epstein highlighted how completely her autonomy disappeared. While staying at an apartment on East 66th Street in Manhattan, Giuffre took a long walk exploring the city for the first time. When she returned, she says Epstein was furious.
“Epstein demanded angrily where I had been, while Maxwell glared at me,” she wrote. “That was the last time I saw the Sixty-Sixth Street apartment.”
After that, she says she was confined to a bedroom in Epstein’s townhouse, where he used an intercom to summon her. “I quickly learned not to keep him waiting,” Giuffre wrote.
Groomed into a “family” of control
Giuffre describes how Epstein and Maxwell cultivated a disturbing dynamic that blurred lines between dependency and abuse. “Epstein was the patriarch, Maxwell the matriarch,” she wrote, explaining that Maxwell referred to the girls around Epstein as her “children.” At one point, the pair took Giuffre to a Palm Beach boat show and introduced her to strangers as their daughter.
“Less good, given my history,” she wrote: “was that Epstein sometimes insisted that I call him ‘Daddy’ during sex.” She added: "I believed that I might die a sex slave”
More Epstein files are set to be released. Credit: Patrick McMullan / Getty
Giuffre’s account of violence and degradation is among the most disturbing elements of the book. She alleges that Epstein and Maxwell “lent me out to scores of wealthy, powerful people,” writing that she was “habitually used and humiliated – and in some instances, choked, beaten, and bloodied.”
“I believed that I might die a sex slave,” she wrote.
Giuffre’s memoir closes with her reflections on survival and the pursuit of justice. After years of legal battles, she said she wanted the book to ensure that “no one could ever again say they didn’t know.”