Demi Lovato reveals struggles with 'survivor’s guilt' following Mac Miller's death

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By Phoebe Egoroff

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Demi Lovato has revealed she had feelings of guilt following the tragic 2018 death of Mac Miller, realizing it almost could have been her.

Speaking on the Apple Music podcast with Zane Lowe, the 30-year-old singer said she felt remorse following the rapper's accidental drug overdose because she had a near-fatal overdose mere months before.

Miller, who was 26 at the time of his death, was at the height of his music career. He had released a new album just weeks prior to his death and had previously collaborated with Ariana Grande on her song 'The Way'.

Speaking to Lowe, Lovato opened up about her thoughts following Miller's untimely passing.

"I had a lot of survivor's guilt after my overdose because right after that, Mac Miller died, and it just put everything into perspective for me of, 'That could have been you, that almost was you, and how are you going to live your life now?' And it affected me a lot," the 'Cool For The Summer' singer said.

Mac Miller sadly died in September 2018 after being given drugs laced with fentanyl, something similar to what Lovato had endured in June that same year. The former Disney Channel star addressed this in her YouTube docuseries, which details her overdose.

"For the past couple years, I’ve heard a lot of stories about my life and what people think has happened, and I wanted to set the record straight," they said in the four-part series. "If it can help you, I hope that it can. That was ultimately my purpose to putting this out: To help people on this path."

In 2018, Lovato had relapsed after six years of sobriety - suffering multiple strokes, a heart attack, and brain damage. She has said that she still lives with the effects of her overdose.

"I was left with brain damage, and I still deal with the effects of that today. I don't drive a car because there are blind spots in my vision. I also for a long time had a really hard time reading [...] I feel like they kind of are still there to remind me of what could happen if I ever get into a dark place again," she stated.

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Miller performing in 2012. Credit: MediaPunch Inc / Alamy

Lovato discusses many of these feelings and emotions in her new album, Holy Fvck. Dropping on Friday (August 19), the singer's eighth studio album has already been met with praise from critics, with music journalist Mark Beaumont calling it an "accomplished record full of anthems" and giving it four out of five stars.

Her song 'Skin Of My Teeth' focuses on her near-death experience, while 'Dead Friends' serves as a tribute to the friends she has lost as a result of their struggles with drugs.

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"I've lost friends that were around my age, and those hurt so deeply because we've been in the trenches together," she explained on the Apple Music podcast.

Lovato has also gained media attention for '29', which alludes to the controversial 12-year-age gap between her and ex-boyfriend Wilmer Valderrama. The pair began dating when she was 17 and he was 29, per VT.

Discussing thier latest album, Lovato revealed that it is: "A body of work that's unapologetically me."

Featured image credit: REUTERS / Alamy

Demi Lovato reveals struggles with 'survivor’s guilt' following Mac Miller's death

vt-author-image

By Phoebe Egoroff

Article saved!Article saved!

Demi Lovato has revealed she had feelings of guilt following the tragic 2018 death of Mac Miller, realizing it almost could have been her.

Speaking on the Apple Music podcast with Zane Lowe, the 30-year-old singer said she felt remorse following the rapper's accidental drug overdose because she had a near-fatal overdose mere months before.

Miller, who was 26 at the time of his death, was at the height of his music career. He had released a new album just weeks prior to his death and had previously collaborated with Ariana Grande on her song 'The Way'.

Speaking to Lowe, Lovato opened up about her thoughts following Miller's untimely passing.

"I had a lot of survivor's guilt after my overdose because right after that, Mac Miller died, and it just put everything into perspective for me of, 'That could have been you, that almost was you, and how are you going to live your life now?' And it affected me a lot," the 'Cool For The Summer' singer said.

Mac Miller sadly died in September 2018 after being given drugs laced with fentanyl, something similar to what Lovato had endured in June that same year. The former Disney Channel star addressed this in her YouTube docuseries, which details her overdose.

"For the past couple years, I’ve heard a lot of stories about my life and what people think has happened, and I wanted to set the record straight," they said in the four-part series. "If it can help you, I hope that it can. That was ultimately my purpose to putting this out: To help people on this path."

In 2018, Lovato had relapsed after six years of sobriety - suffering multiple strokes, a heart attack, and brain damage. She has said that she still lives with the effects of her overdose.

"I was left with brain damage, and I still deal with the effects of that today. I don't drive a car because there are blind spots in my vision. I also for a long time had a really hard time reading [...] I feel like they kind of are still there to remind me of what could happen if I ever get into a dark place again," she stated.

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Miller performing in 2012. Credit: MediaPunch Inc / Alamy

Lovato discusses many of these feelings and emotions in her new album, Holy Fvck. Dropping on Friday (August 19), the singer's eighth studio album has already been met with praise from critics, with music journalist Mark Beaumont calling it an "accomplished record full of anthems" and giving it four out of five stars.

Her song 'Skin Of My Teeth' focuses on her near-death experience, while 'Dead Friends' serves as a tribute to the friends she has lost as a result of their struggles with drugs.

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Credit: REUTERS / Alamy

"I've lost friends that were around my age, and those hurt so deeply because we've been in the trenches together," she explained on the Apple Music podcast.

Lovato has also gained media attention for '29', which alludes to the controversial 12-year-age gap between her and ex-boyfriend Wilmer Valderrama. The pair began dating when she was 17 and he was 29, per VT.

Discussing thier latest album, Lovato revealed that it is: "A body of work that's unapologetically me."

Featured image credit: REUTERS / Alamy