Elliot Page has shared he has known since the age of four that he was a boy.
The 36-year-old Umbrella Academy actor came out as transgender in December 2020 and remains Hollywood's most high-profile trans star.
On Tuesday (June 6), Page's memoir – titled Pageboy – was released, and it contains a number of secret confessions about the actor's love life as well as further details on his coming out.
The Oscar nominee writes about his gender dysphoria - going into detail about how difficult it was for him to live as a girl. He also recalled some alarming incidents including a time when he confronted a stalker.
The Juno star said he knew from a very early age, while he was growing up in Nova Scotia, Canada, that he was a boy.
Recounting a date he had been on in Manhattan with a woman named Sara, he shared how Sara asked him: "When did you know?"
Per the Daily Mail, Page writes: "I knew when I was four years old. I went to the YMCA preschool in downtown Halifax, on South Park Street across from the Public Gardens.
"Primarily, I understood that I wasn't a girl. Not in a conscious sense, but in a pure sense, uncontaminated. That sensation is one of my earliest and clearest memories."
Page also shared how he attempted to urinate standing up, deciding that it felt more natural.
"I was perplexed by my experience, severed from the other girls, twists in my stomach when I gazed at them," he writes.
Page asked his mother, Martha Philpotts, a public school English and French teacher, at the age of six if he could be a boy.
She responded: "No hon, you can't, you're a girl. But you can do anything a boy can do."
Page said he would often have crushes on girls at school – he even said he had a thing for Sandra Bullock after seeing her in the 1996 movie Two If By Sea, which was filmed in Nova Scotia.
He said his heart was "aflutter for Sandra Bullock, my eight-year-old self not comprehending that I once again had a crush."
The actor continued: "Twenty years later I would have dinner with my friend Catherine Keener and Sandra at the famous Craig's in Beverly Hills. Sandra looked so cool, in jeans and a hip rocker T. She was nice, funny and grounded, just as my eight-year-old self had imagined. Oh, these strange roads we travel."
