Jessie J has opened up about her "shock and overwhelming sadness" after suffering a miscarriage.
The singer, 33, opened up about the devastating loss in an emotional post on Instagram, revealing she decided to have a baby on her own earlier this year.
After going in for her third scan, the singer says she was told that "there was no longer a heartbeat."
"Yesterday morning I was laughing with a friend saying 'seriously though how am I going to get through my gig in LA tomorrow night without telling the whole audience I am pregnant.' By yesterday afternoon I was dreading the thought of getting through the gig without breaking down…," she wrote, alongside a photo of her holding up a positive pregnancy test.
"After going for my 3rd scan and being told there was no longer a heartbeat. This morning. I feel like I have no control of my emotions. I may regret posting this. I may not. I actually don't know. What I do know is that I want to sing tonight. Not because I'm avoiding the grief or the process, but because I know singing tonight will help me."
"I have done 2 shows in 2 years and my soul needs it. Even more today. I know some people will be thinking she should just cancel it. But in this moment I have clarity on one thing. I started singing when I was young for joy, to fill my soul and self-love therapy, that hasn't ever changed and I have to process this my way," she added.
"I want to be honest and true and not hide what I'm feeling. I deserve that. I want to be as myself as I can be in this moment. Not just for the audience but for myself and my little baby that did its best," she shared.
"I know myself and I know I would talk about it on stage because that's who I am. So instead of a tearful emotional speech trying to explain my energy. This feels safer."
Jessie J, whose real name is Jessica Ellen Cornish, also explained that she decided to have a baby on her own as it's "all I've ever wanted and life is short."
"To get pregnant was a miracle in itself and an experience I will never forget and I know I will have again. I'm still in shock, the sadness is overwhelming. But I know I am strong, and I know I will be ok," she adds.
She continued: "I also know millions of women all over the world have felt this pain and way worse. I feel connected to those of you I know and those of you I don't. It's the loneliest feeling in the world."
"So I will see you tonight LA. I may crack less jokes but my heart will be in the room," she concluded the heartbreaking post.
The singer was set to perform Wednesday night in Los Angeles. In a second slide on her Instagram post, she shared a quote from Australian poet Şeyda Noir that read: "Sometimes love won't be enough to make it work, and that's ok. It doesn't mean that you've failed."