Singer and songwriter, Ed Sheeran, has spoken out about how his "very addictive personality" let him to binge on food and alcohol during the early days of his career.

Speaking candidly on an online summit on anxiety and wellbeing, as reported by the BBC, the Shape of You artist disclosed that he had suffered FROM panic attacks and dealt with low self-esteem after his ascent to superstardom.

I felt, 'What was the point?' In a dark way, like, 'Why am I around? What is the point?'" he said when discussing a particularly rough patch during his world tour in 2014 - 2015.

He then went onto credit his wife, Cherry, for helping him adopt a more healthy lifestyle. He continued: "She exercises a lot, so I started going on runs with her. She eats quite healthily so I started eating quite healthily. She doesn't drink that much so I wasn't drinking. I think that all changed things.

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In the interview, which was conducted by documentary maker, James Sebastiano Jr., Sheeran also touched on his very lowest point when he was on a 180-date world tour to promote his 2014 album, X.

"I would stay up and drink all night and then sleep on the bus," he said. "The buses would park underneath the arenas and I'd sleep on the bus all day and then wake up and then come out, do the show, drink get back on the bus and I didn't see sunlight for maybe four months.

"It's all fun and games at the start. it's all rock and roll, and then like it starts getting sad. That was probably like the lowest that I've been and I kind of ballooned in weight.

"I'm covered in in tattoos and I don't do things by half," the star admitted, "so if I'm gonna drink... I see no point in having a glass of wine. I'd rather have two bottles.

"Having a glass of wine is having something in moderation and probably isn't going to affect your day the next day. But two bottles of wine probably might make you quite sad."

Speaking about his binge-eating, Sheeran added: "They used to call me two-dinner Teddy because I used to order two meals and eat that,," he said. "Then you start putting on loads of weight and hating the way you look. I think things like sugar, sweet stuff, junk food, cocaine, alcohol, it feels good the more you do, but it's the worst thing for you."

Ed Sheeran has candidly opened up about his mental health after suffering a series of personal traumas in recent years, before finding help through therapy.

The singer, 32, who is a father to two daughters - Lyra, two,  and Jupiter, 10 months - with wife Cherry Seaborn, has given fans an intimate look at his personal life in a new documentary.

Ed has given fans a glimpse at what to expect from the Disney + film, titled Ed Sheeran: The Sum Of It All, which doesn't shy away from the more difficult parts of his life.

In the clip, Ed is seen breaking down while discussing the death of his best friend Jamal Edwards - to whom he credits his career - as well as health issues Cherry has been experiencing. 

Ahead of the documentary's release, Ed revealed to Rolling Stone that he had been out for dinner with Taylor Swift and her boyfriend Joe Alwyn and was texting Jamal Edwards the day before the SBTV creator died from cardiac arrhythmia brought on by cocaine use, to arrange plans to shoot a music video the following day.

He told the publication, through tears: "Twelve hours later, he was dead. My best friend died and he shouldn’t have done."

The bereavement sent Ed into a spiral of depression, which he'd first experienced while at school but hadn't addressed until recently.

He explained: "I’ve always had real lows in my life, but it wasn’t really till last year that I actually addressed it."

As well as the death of his friend, Ed was also embroiled in a court battle to defend himself against accusations of plagiarism for his song 'Shape Of You', which he ended up winning.

Around the same time, Cherry was also diagnosed with a tumor while six months pregnant, which was not able to be operated on until she gave birth.

The couple had discussed delivering baby Jupiter early, but Cherry ended up carrying her to term and gave birth in May, before having surgery to remove the tumor in June, which was successful.

Ed also faced further grief when his friend, cricketer Shane Warne, died in March, and the singer found it increasingly difficult to deal with the heartbreak of so many difficult circumstances at the same time.

He admitted: "I felt like I didn’t want to live anymore. And I have had that throughout my life.… You’re under the waves drowning. You’re just sort of in this thing. And you can’t get out of it."

He admitted to feeling "really embarrassed" to have those feelings, especially after becoming a father himself, until Cherry encouraged him to see a therapist and talk about it.

"No one really talks about their feelings where I come from," he explained. "People think it’s weird getting a therapist in England.… I think it’s very helpful to be able to speak with someone and just vent and not feel guilty about venting.

"Obviously, like, I’ve lived a very privileged life. So my friends would always look at me like, 'Oh, it’s not that bad.'"

He admitted that working on his mental health is an ongoing process and "isn’t a button that is pressed, where you’re automatically okay".

Ed Sheeran: The Sum Of It All is available on Disney+ from May 3.

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Justin Bieber has opened up about the height of his life-threatening drug addiction.

In a very candid interview with GQ Magazine, Bieber, who graced the magazine's May issue, spoke openly about how his security guards would check he was still alive as he slept as his drug habit became increasingly severe.

According to the 'Yummy' singer, at night, his team even made a habit of checking his pulse.

Bieber explained: "There was a sense of still yearning for more. It was like I had all this success and it was still like: I’m still sad, and I’m still in pain."

The 27-year-old chart-topper added: "And I still have these unresolved issues. And I thought all the success was going to make everything good. And so for me, the drugs were a numbing agent to just continue to get through."

He also told the magazine: "I was surrounded by a lot of people, and we were all kind of just escaping our real life. I think we just weren’t living in reality... I think it would have probably resulted in just a lot of doing drugs and being posted up, to be honest."

The singer explained that his past demons had made the first year of his marriage to Hailey Baldwin extremely challenging, with the singer recalling how the couple have had to overcome a "lack of trust"

Bieber married the supermodel, 24, in a secret ceremony in New York in 2018. The pair went on to exchange vows in a formal ceremony in South Carolina in September 2019.

Last year, Bieber also spoke about his struggles with addiction on his YouTube documentary, the Justin Bieber: Sessions.

Per NME, he revealed that he first tried marijuana at the age of 13, and later became addicted to stronger substances.

He said: "I was, like, dying. People don’t know how serious it got It was legit, crazy scary.

"I basically said to myself, ‘God, if you are real, you get me through this season of stopping these pills and stuff, and if you do, I’ll do the rest of the work.’ I never did the actual work.

"I got off the pills but never went to the root of everything so I just circled back around which most people do."

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Justin Bieber has once again sparked concern among fans after posting a cryptic message about the pain he has experienced throughout his life.

The 31-year-old singer, who has been in the public eye since his teenage years, took to Instagram to share his latest thoughts, just days after a previous post in which he admitted to feeling like a fraud.

A Troubling Message

In his latest post, Bieber opened up about struggling with emotions he had been told to suppress as a child.

"I WAS ALWAYS TOLD WHEN I WAS A KID NOT TO HATE BUT IT MADE ME FEEL LIKE I WASNT ALLOWED TO HAVE IT AND SO I DIDNT TELL ANYONE IVE HAD IT," he wrote.

"WHICH MADE ME FEEL LIKE LIKE I HAVE BEEN DROWNING FEELING UNSAFE TO ACKNOWLEDGE IT."

He continued, "I THINK WE CAN ONLY LET HATE GO BY FIRST ACKNOWLEDGING ITS THERE. HOW COULDNT WE FEEL HATE FROM ALL OF THE HURT WE HAVE EXPERIENCED?"

The post follows a message he shared last week where he reflected on his struggles with imposter syndrome, admitting, "I personally have always felt unworthy, like I was a fraud."

A Period of Change

Bieber’s recent messages have left many fans worried about his well-being, especially as they come at a time of major change in his life. In August, he and his wife, Hailey Bieber, welcomed their first child, Jack Blues.

Despite his cryptic posts, those close to him insist he is in a good place. His representatives addressed ongoing speculation, firmly denying rumors that he was using drugs.

"The recurring narrative that Justin is using hard drugs is absolutely not true," his rep stated. "He is in one of the best places in his life."

They added that Bieber has been focused on fatherhood and creating new music, describing the rumors as "exhausting and pitiful."

A History of Struggles

Bieber has been open in the past about his battles with mental health. In 2020, he revealed his past struggles with drug addiction and anxiety, sharing that he had turned to substances as a way to cope with the pressures of fame.

Over the years, he has stepped away from the spotlight at times to prioritize his well-being. However, his latest posts suggest he is still grappling with deep personal struggles.

As fans continue to express their concerns, many are hoping that Bieber is finding support from those closest to him—including his wife and newborn son—while he navigates this difficult chapter.

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Justin Bieber has broken his silence after growing concern from fans about his well-being, sharing a deeply heartbreaking message.

The 31-year-old singer, who rose to fame as a teenager, admitted in an Instagram post on Thursday that despite his success, he often feels undeserving of the praise he receives.

"People told me my whole life, 'Wow, Justin, you deserve that,'" he wrote. "And I personally have always felt unworthy, like I was a fraud, like when people told me I deserve something. It made me feel sneaky like, damn if they only knew my thoughts. How judgmental I am, how selfish I really am... They wouldn't be saying this."

Bieber continued, "I say all this to say, if you feel sneaky, welcome to the club. I definitely feel unequipped and unqualified most days."

The post comes amid ongoing speculation about Bieber’s health and mental state. In recent months, the singer has been spotted looking disheveled, and a video of him smoking from what appeared to be a bong sparked further concern.

One fan commented, "Is Justin okay? This is so unlike him." Another added, "I'm genuinely concerned for Justin after seeing this."

Earlier this month, Bieber celebrated his 31st birthday by sharing family photos with his wife, Hailey Bieber, and their seven-month-old son, Jack Blues.

Despite these happy moments, fans have continued to question his well-being, especially after a video surfaced of him performing a rap about getting high.

Representative Denies Drug Rumors

In response to growing speculation, Bieber’s representative issued a statement denying claims that the singer was using hard drugs.

"The recurring narrative that Justin is using hard drugs is absolutely not true," the rep told TMZ. "Justin is currently in one of the best places in his life. He has had a very transformative year and ended several close friendships and business relationships that no longer served him."

The rep also told the outlet that the narrative about the star's mental and physical health is "exhausting and pitiful and shows that despite the obvious truth, people are committed to keeping negative, salacious, harmful narratives alive."

They added that Bieber is "actively parenting his newborn son" and focusing on making new music.

Hailey Bieber’s Support

Bieber’s wife, Hailey, has also been at the center of fan discussions, with some speculating about the state of their marriage. The couple, who married in 2018, have recently been seen together in public and on social media, seemingly brushing aside rumors of trouble.

A source told Us Weekly that Hailey is doing her best to support Bieber during this time. "It can be hard for Hailey, but she's always there for him and is understanding," the insider said.

Another source insisted that Bieber is "happier than he's been in a long time" and that he is not concerned with outside speculation.

"There’s no breakdown," the source said. "He just really doesn’t care what people think."

Bieber’s Reflection on Fame

Bieber’s Instagram post also hinted at imposter syndrome, a common struggle among celebrities who rise to fame quickly. The singer was discovered at just 15 years old and became one of the best-selling artists of all time, with an estimated 150 million records sold worldwide.

Despite his success, Bieber has been open about the challenges that came with it. In 2020, he spoke about past struggles with addiction, revealing that he first started using marijuana at age 12 or 13 before experimenting with harder drugs.

In past interviews, he has been open about his challenges, stating to Vogue in 2019: "I've struggled with the feeling that people are using me or aren't really there for me."

On Friday, March 14, Justin Bieber’s father, Jeremy Bieber, posted a touching photo of the singer lounging on a couch with his four siblings, referring to them as "my crew" in the caption.

In the image, the 31-year-old "Peaches" singer is nestled in the center of his family, surrounded by his sisters Bay, 6, and Jazmyn, 16, his brother Jaxon, 15, and his 17-year-old stepsister, Allie Bieber (née Rebelo).

Bieber’s recent message reflects his continued journey with self-acceptance, as he navigates fame, fatherhood, and personal growth.

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